Sometimes I wonder if I may be sleepwalking through life. What if all I have, all I believe in is just a illusion, just an extended rationalization I have led myself to believe so that I can make sense of things? Or worse a result of early but strong beliefs formed in the setting of societal pressures? If all I know so far may possibly be just a creation of my own mind or of others' expectations of me, then what is real?
How I lead my life, what dreams I have, what importance I give to the relationships in it, what rules I adhere by and what the purpose of it all is- what if my understanding of it all is just wrong? What if I was supposed to have different goals, a different perspective, what if I am actually running away from the path I was supposed to take to realize my destiny? What is reality and how does one go about finding it? These are not questions that 20 years of conventional education can help me answer. So I continue to seek.
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2 comments:
Thanks to your next blog:: so what if we don't get it right, we always have a second chance and many more :-).
Wow, this is amazing to reread my own blog post from 4 years ago that I had forgotten all about. In those years, I have been opened to so many new perspectives. Yes, it is all illusion (I knew that all along at some level, I guess!). But it does not cause me to despair anymore. Because the illusions in my world and how they make me feel are going to be now "chosen" by me rather than accepted unconsciously. The dream world and the nightmares will be accepted, meditated on, and kept or discarded; but no more cause suffering or pain.
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